Thoughts and Occurances Relating to the GODster
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God is an odd bird. It's funny how a person can get to their wits end with Him and then, later, be perfectly content with Him.
For a good while now I have been somewhat worried about my relationship with God. I'd pray to God yet wouldn't feel He was there - I felt He was gone, permenantly. This sort of scared me -- I thought, "Well, I wasn't a good enough Christian so He must have abandoned me." I was even kind of angry at Him. Then I saw the light.
One thing I've noticed about myself is that I feel very uncomfortable expressing my religious beliefs in work and school settings. I've always felt that the two should be totally seperate (And, I still believe in the separation of church and state, btw!). So, when I began my internship this summer I felt odd when patients would talk about God to me -- but I always listen(ed). Then, there are my co-workers, but first...
One night I finally asked God...
"Won't you just show me you're still here?"
Not too long afterwards, after I had totally forgotten about my request of Him, He answered me.
Like an explosion, I began hearing my co-workers talk about God as well as more of my friends talking about their relationship with God. Because of this I had some really wonderful conversations with some of these people about God. Afterwards I began feeling His presence again and realizing that He had heard my request...
God is always listening, even when we choose to believe otherwise.
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Is there really such a thing as coincedence? I think not. Life has one big equation to it. It is algebra, live. Occurances are variables to plug into the formula. I challenge you to attempt linking events -- and ponder their occurance.
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Who's to say who's right...
Those who see "signs" or those who see "pure coincedence"?
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God is hard to explain...
But when you finally recognize and experience Him, He's hard to forget.
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What do you think? That anyone who confesses with their mouth that they believe in Jesus, and who truly believe in their hearts that Jesus died for their sins, is automatically saved. Or is there more to it -- perhaps that not all who cry "Lord, Lord!" will enter the Kingdom of Heaven. What is it? The world may never know.
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God is an odd bird. It's funny how a person can get to their wits end with Him and then, later, be perfectly content with Him.
For a good while now I have been somewhat worried about my relationship with God. I'd pray to God yet wouldn't feel He was there - I felt He was gone, permenantly. This sort of scared me -- I thought, "Well, I wasn't a good enough Christian so He must have abandoned me." I was even kind of angry at Him. Then I saw the light.
One thing I've noticed about myself is that I feel very uncomfortable expressing my religious beliefs in work and school settings. I've always felt that the two should be totally seperate (And, I still believe in the separation of church and state, btw!). So, when I began my internship this summer I felt odd when patients would talk about God to me -- but I always listen(ed). Then, there are my co-workers, but first...
One night I finally asked God...
"Won't you just show me you're still here?"
Not too long afterwards, after I had totally forgotten about my request of Him, He answered me.
Like an explosion, I began hearing my co-workers talk about God as well as more of my friends talking about their relationship with God. Because of this I had some really wonderful conversations with some of these people about God. Afterwards I began feeling His presence again and realizing that He had heard my request...
God is always listening, even when we choose to believe otherwise.
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Is there really such a thing as coincedence? I think not. Life has one big equation to it. It is algebra, live. Occurances are variables to plug into the formula. I challenge you to attempt linking events -- and ponder their occurance.
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Who's to say who's right...
Those who see "signs" or those who see "pure coincedence"?
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God is hard to explain...
But when you finally recognize and experience Him, He's hard to forget.
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What do you think? That anyone who confesses with their mouth that they believe in Jesus, and who truly believe in their hearts that Jesus died for their sins, is automatically saved. Or is there more to it -- perhaps that not all who cry "Lord, Lord!" will enter the Kingdom of Heaven. What is it? The world may never know.
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posted by Holly at 3:19 PM
1 Comments:
Friend, I know how you feel. Last night I'd had it. I was definitely at my wits end. This morning, even. Tonight, I'm better. I think that when we're not feeling God there is maybe because we aren't seeking him the way we should be. At least that's the case for me. I expect this awesome relationship with him, but I push him to the very back, the very end, and fit him in if I have time. I suppose I do this because I know he's the only one who'll never leave me, the only one who will tolerate the behavior. And he will, but I think it makes him terribly sad. I know it makes me sad just to be ignored by a friend. How much more by your own creation!
It's just that I see the times I'm closest to him are the times when I am seeking him hard! Why would I expect times when I'm not seeking him at all (or very minimally) to be just as good as those other times? I'm still trying to learn this lesson. Take now, for example. It's 12:15 am, and we still haven't spent any real alone time together today. It's sad. I pretend to be really seeking, but seriously. How can you even pretend with God?
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